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[systemismine.livejournal.com]

[Living an honest lifestyle had its downfalls, this old Ocelot was starting to see. Having lied his way through the majority of his life was comfortable enough for him, but now that he had jeprodized two important relationships from being honest and truthful, he was finding it incredibly hard to see the hype. At least when he worked as a triple agent, he managed to gain trust easier and almost always got his way. It was easier to lie. He never imagined that being truthful and not hiding the past would be painful.

Rather than looking for someone to fight to rid the flurry of emotions inside, Ocelot had made his way out into the cruise room. He was standing on the deck of his boat, hands braced on the railings. Being out in the open with the sea wind wipping about his hair made him forget momentarily just how alone he felt in this world.

However, part of him knows that he won't be alone for very long. Entering a room like this usually attracted attention, so he has set up a buffet on the lower deck, along with a bar for cocktails and some lawn chairs were sprawled out should any female company decide to get a tan under the sun.]

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[Adam stiffens at the embrace. He tenses visibly in John's arms, not moving into it but not quite moving away either. He hangs his head, closing his eyes tightly.]

_{What did I say about physical closeness?}

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

[He squeezes him one last time before releasing him in silence and taking a step back.]

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

[Adam stows the flower into his breast pocket, allowing him to clench his fists. His eyes remain shut, because he doesn't trust his blurred vision right now.]

_{I'm tired, John.}

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

[He was about to turn and leave until Adam spoke again.]

... [John pauses to hear him out, but he's not sure that he likes where this conversation may be going.]

'Tired', Adam?

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

Yes. Tired.

<sub>I tried to do the right thing and it backfired in my face. Twice.

I'm tired of chasing you, and tired of haboring the past so close to my heart. And yet, life was so much easier back then, before existing in this place.</sub>

[He finally opens his eyes.] _{How do you do it, John?}

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

_{...It's no easier for me, Adam.}

[John shakes his head. Sometimes he feels like giving up, but he knows that he can't ever. So many people rely on him...]

_{Every day is a struggle. Life would be so much easier if I didn't have to live it.}

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

[That breaks a smile onto his face. It's not sarcastic in the slightest. He turns, finally, to face John properly. He extends his arms, gesturing to the sea around him.]

Well... Why don't you jump off the ship with me?

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

...





...don't...tempt me.

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

[He barks out a laugh.]

Who knows? Perhaps the Nexus would grant our wish this time.

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

...

[TEMPTING!]

You think that's possible.

[The crazy bastard strides over to the edge and looks over...]

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

Anything is possible here.

But EVA would never forgive me if I allowed you to jump.

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

I thought we were jumping together?

[He gives Adam a sad smile.]

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

Even in death, she would hold me responsible.

[He glances over the railing. Yes... It is very tempting.]

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

[John just rests his chin on his arms and stares out to sea in silence.]

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

[Adam braces his hand on John's back.]

You will be alright, John.

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

_{I haven't been alright for so long, Adam.}

[That touch, no matter how slight it may be, is an great comfort to him.]

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

I suppose you of all people deserve to be selfish.

_{Though that begs the question; do you really wish to end your life that badly?}

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

[He mutters his words.]

I have far too many things to take care of.

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

[He shoots him a sideways glance.]

Such as?

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

My family.

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

You don't have a selfish bone in your body, do you?

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

...



What?

[systemismine.livejournal.com]

You really should learn to let go once in a while.

What is one thing YOU want to do? If you didn't take into consideration what anyone else thought.

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

What I want to do? [He parrots]

Uh...hmm...

[old-papa-john.livejournal.com]

...


I don't know.