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[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven is wandering the halls, looking forlorn. After finding out from Alek that she was possibly too clingy, she's resigned to the fact that she just can't get the hang of acting like a normal person. She doesn't know what to do - as a Raven she didn't have to worry about this. Personal space is so confusing. Was she supposed to hug people, or not? Would that make people wary of her? Or was she supposed to keep her distance?]

[Confused, and obviously unhappy, Raven is blowing up random walls and benches. Maybe things would be easier if she didn't get attatched to anyone anymore. Who needs friends anyway, right?]


((OOC: You can come and try to help her, or you can yell at her for blowing things up. Either way, she has even more of a reason to act like an icy bitch~))

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[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

[The darkness descends, sweeping down the corridors and casting over the distressed woman. >) ]

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Blowing up a nearby table, Raven looks up when a shadow is cast over the rubble.]

...?

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

What's wrong? You seem distressed.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[She frowns.]

People are confusing and things were easier as a raven.

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

You find death more natural than mingling?

[Dahlia's interests were peaked, to say the least. Here was a woman who resorted to destruction when frustration ran its course.

This is a very good thing for Boss~.]

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[She's ashamed of herself, but yes - it was easier to kill people than to get along with them.]

Understanding people is complicated. People are a waste of time. They're easier when they're in pieces.

[Raven fires a grenade at another wall, noting how long it took to destroy much without her beast suit. But she couldn't go back to it... she had promised herself she'd put her beast behind her.]

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

I couldn't agree more because when you look at things from a higher perspective, they're all just little ants crawling around. People think they have safety in their self-formed societies; that a natural order exists. However, people like you and I are strongest when their world is in ruins...

[Boss watches Raven very carefully, gauging her reaction and noting with delight how effective she was at bringing the structure to ruination.]

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven remembers how small everyone looked from up in the sky.]

It was so easy... killing. Just ripping them apart... every last one of them...

[She holds her head, hearing it again - screams, crying, her own shrieks and caws, fueled by uncontrollable rage. She growls under her breath, but brings her hands back down. She couldn't keep losing it like this. Last time, she almost killed Alek.]

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

[A sly grin slithers over her lips as she snakes a hand under Raven's chin, forcing her to look at Boss.]

You're a harbinger of death. Why do you hide from what you are? Embrace it.

[Boss stoops closer, her hands on Raven's shoulders. Her voice drops into a deadly whisper.]

And when you're done, when no one else will take you in because of the monster that you are, I'll be in the shadows; beckoning~.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven's eyes widen, but she doesn't back away.]

Monster...?

[...That was what she was, right? A beast. A bloodthirsty raven. Was that why she couldn't connect with people?]

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

Don't worry, you're not the only one. I'm one too. I feel Joy when I'm in the midst of battle. The sounds of screaming and cries are music to my ears. Blood cakes my hands. It's who I am.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven doesn't really know what to say. She can hear screaming again, and she moves her hands up to grip at her head for the second time. Her suit glows faintly.]

Rage...

[No, she couldn't... she had to keep in control...]

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

[Dahlia loops around Raven; her hands trailing the other woman's shoulders as she leans in and whispers in her ear-]

Don't fight who you are~. Give in to the hate.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[She growls, her suit glowing brighter.]

Bastards... I won't forgive any of you... I...

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

Go, monster~. Show them your rage!

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven caws loudly, firing grenades at the walls. She steps back slightly, the wall behind her crumbling into rubble and feathers seemingly made of light. As she speaks, her inner beast can be heard - a deeper, more sinister voice.]

Let your anger boil to the surface! Anger begets anger! Show me your rage!

[darksideofwar.livejournal.com]

[This display makes Boss so proud to be evil~]

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

.....

Having fun?

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[She shrugs as a wall comes crashing down nearby.]

I don't know.

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

...Okay.

Is there a point to this destruction?

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

No.

[She fires a grenade at a door.]

It just makes me feel better.

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

You risk hurting someone like that.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[She scowls.]

Maybe they'd deserve it. Maybe all people are good for is hurting others.

[No... wait. Not everyone deserves to be blown to pieces. Raven tries to breathe deep and allow herself to relax.]

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

That isn't true. [Jamila approaches, going to place a hand on her shoulder]

What has upset you?

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven sighs.]

I don't know how I'm supposed to act around people. I thought I was learning to act... normal... but apparently I'm too clingy. I don't know if I'm supposed to hug people, or keep my distance, or even talk to people. Things were easier when I was just... killing people. I didn't have to understand them. I thought I was supposed to hug people a lot.

[Her tone makes it apparent that she doesn't really want to go back to that, though. And the last time she interacted with anybody before the nexus, she was being clingy... real clingy.]

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

...Ah.

[She sighs herself] It will... take a while to readapt to society. To be honest, I'm not even sure if I've gotten used to acting "normal" yet. [Especially since she still has the tendency to sniff people... and has the strange urge to straddle every Snake she sees... and chased young Ocelot through the halls for no reason...]

I know it can be frustrating, but you should not give up on people. [She gives the woman's shoulder a squeeze] Stay strong, Raven.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

Is there any point in trying? People just... don't seem worth the effort. One of the only people I really connected to outside of the unit had to make it clear that his intentions weren't anything more than friendly... I think it's because I hugged him a lot. I don't feel that way about him, but he said he didn't want to 'lead me on'.

[She gives Jamila an imploring look. She doesn't understand people at all!]

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

....

Is that what this is about?

[Jamila lets out a small laugh and hooks an arm over Raven's shoulders, pulling the woman closer] Listen closely, Raven. I'm about to tell you something very important.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven looks confused, but allows the contact.]

What?

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

[She smiles]

Men are stupid. It's... really as simple as that.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[She tilts her head.]

He is kinda dumb... and he doesn't know English very well.

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

Don't lose all faith in humanity just because men can be ignorant. They sometimes say the wrong things- But that doesn't mean they all deserve to die.

Give it time... Things will get easier.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

Would killing them all help?

[It would possibly be a funny thought, if she wasn't deadly serious. :|]

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

......

No.

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

Oh.

[How boring.]

[criedmyselfdry.livejournal.com]

[Jamila sighs, and pats Raven on the shoulder] Just... give it some thought okay?

[She goes to walk away]

[hall-patrol.livejournal.com]

Ah...Natasha? Maybe you should be careful with blow up this things.

[He doesn't realize that she's still upset about their conversation. To understand why, refer to the conversation above with Jamila.]

Sup beast voice

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven chuckles darkly, turning to face him.]

I am not Natasha. I am a Raven... a winged beast!

[To understand why she's like this, refer to the conversation above with Evil Boss. ;D]

oh god

[hall-patrol.livejournal.com]

[No no no, not this again! Last time she sounded like that he barely got away with his life!]

No, you are Natasha, a very nice woman! You do not want hurt your friend!

[Right?!]

XD BLAME EVIL BOSS

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

I don't need friends. I am a solitary hunter of the night!

[She fires a grenade behind him, cawing loudly.]

DAMN YOU EVIL BOSS

[hall-patrol.livejournal.com]

[He lunges forward to the ground, trying to get away from the blast.]

Natasha, come on! What happen? We can talk of it and I will help you!

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

You can't help me! I am a beast!

[She fires more grenades behind him.]

Rage! Rage!

[sweetlilmonster.livejournal.com]

[somthing small is poking your leg]

Hey pretty lady, you don't look so happy. What's got you down?

[the lil' guy stares up at Raven with his big eyes]

Eepoo~?

I won't have Raven being psycho with the kid lmao >>;

[ragingbeauty.livejournal.com]

[Raven pauses for a moment in between blowing up a wall and the ceiling, looking down at the child.]

People.

okay.

[sweetlilmonster.livejournal.com]

[The small boy curls his finger around his hair]

Why?