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[elisula.livejournal.com]

....Ilsa?

[She only stepped out for a moment... It couldn't have been more than 3 minutes. Where did they go?? That pink, inflatable ball that the two girls were just tossing back and forth to each other now sits stationary in the middle of her apartment's floor. Even more daunting- Ilsa hasn't finished the cup of peach-slices that her mother just gave her a few moments ago. The girl's may have a lot of energy, but they'd never just run out of the room like that. Elisa's heart began to pound as she couldn't help but assume the worst.]

Orsa??

[On the verge of panic, Elisa began running down the hallway of her floor- peering in all directions for her suddenly-missing children. But eventually.... she stops.  The girl breathes deeply; trying to give this rational thought. Somewhere inside, she knows that her two daughters are gone now... But what she knows and what she accepts are 2 very different things. There has to be SOMETHING she isn't thinking of...]

[...Oh! That room! She'll simply go back into that room she found them in; and everything will be fine, right? ...But after the medic dashes as quickly as her body would take her to the Parent Room, she stepped inside to see... no one. Not a single child.]

.....

[They're gone for good, aren't they?]

[And just like that; the dream of finally having her own family again is shattered. Those two beautiful girls she came to know and love in such short time are both gone... She can physically feel her heart breaking at the realization. A sudden, very sharp pain in the medic's head knocks her back into reality- but it's that pain throbbing in her chest that feels much much worse. One hand covers her heart as she crumbles to the floor; tears streaming down her cheeks as she begins sobbing openly. Her body trembles and the light bulbs in this area around her burst, shattering shards of glass. But Elisa remains unaware. All she can really register is that very deep pain felt throughout her entire body.]

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[elisula.livejournal.com]

[Elisa has to think about that. Would it have been better if she never met them? She was getting along just fine with just Fox and Null, before they came along... and reminded her of what she'll never be able to have...]

[The girl begins silently crying again; not loudly sobbing like before but quietly sniffling as tears pour down her cheeks.]

[At least the pain in her head is slowly dying down...]

[dontshakeplz.livejournal.com]

[Carefully she reached over, touching the girl on the shoulder. She wanted to give her a hug, but she didn't want to overstep her boundaries.]

I'm so sorry...

[elisula.livejournal.com]

[The young medic just shakes her head; not rejecting or having any real reaction to the physical contact. She barely even notices it, in all honesty. Her mind is just... elsewhere. Those extra-strngth pills she took have begun really kicking in; clouding her thoughts somewhat.]

[She hears Rose's words though] ...I'm... sorry for your loss, too.

[dontshakeplz.livejournal.com]

[Rose just nods, wiping away the silent tears that had been running down her face.]

I didn't know it would hurt this much...

[elisula.livejournal.com]

...I thought that I got over my inability to have children of my own. I knew, ever since I was a child, that the heavy radiation I was exposed to had taken that away from me. I lived with that knowledge for so long... I don't know why I'm feeling this way... I should have known this would happen.

[dontshakeplz.livejournal.com]

It would be strange if you didn't feel loss. Mothers who couldn't have children before who were suddenly blessed... they would feel the same way. This Nexus... can truly be a cruel place at times.

[elisula.livejournal.com]

Is it really just... The Nexus? [She asks this question more to herself than to Rose] My sister... she always says that were weren't meant to keep a family. She says that our fate is different from others... that all I need is her, and my mentor, so it would be best to get the idea of starting my own family out of my head...

I always told her she was wrong... but...

[dontshakeplz.livejournal.com]

Whether you start a family or not is your choice, not fate. Even if you can't have children naturally, there's plenty of ways to have a family otherwise.

[She looked at the girl.] You should do whatever makes you happy. And I know, at least in this place, there are plenty of children who don't have parents. They might need someone like you.

[elisula.livejournal.com]

....

[Elisa simply allows herself to lean fully against Rose's shoulder; her head down.]

I really wish it were that simple.

[dontshakeplz.livejournal.com]

[She moves so that an arm is around the girl's shoulders, holding her comfortingly.]

You'll find what makes you happy. Find your own fate, not what your sister thinks is your fate.

[elisula.livejournal.com]

[The girl slowly nods her head. She feels really exhausted, and blinks tiredly as she leans against the older woman.]

...I'll try.

[dontshakeplz.livejournal.com]

[She just holds the younger woman.]

You can do it... you're strong.