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fissionmailed2009-11-05 09:20 pm
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[TRUTH ROOM] and I wanna hear what you have to say about me
[The Oldacon's found a room where one of the kitchens used to be. It's not remarkable in any way other than it's irritating non-kitchenness. There are some comfy chairs, a nice plush carpet, some reddish mood lighting-
-and a door that won't open again.]
Oh, you... come on. [He fights with the door momentarily, getting nowhere at break-neck speeds. He sighs and moves to sit in a chair, looking somberly around. He has no idea what the room wants, but it's not letting him go just yet.]
((OOC: This is a room that forces people to say truths they normally wouldn't divulge. You can only get out after saying one of these truths aloud for someone else to hear. The effects could last for as long or as short a time as you wish. Feel free to either bother Hal or just wander in alone or wotever.))
-and a door that won't open again.]
Oh, you... come on. [He fights with the door momentarily, getting nowhere at break-neck speeds. He sighs and moves to sit in a chair, looking somberly around. He has no idea what the room wants, but it's not letting him go just yet.]
((OOC: This is a room that forces people to say truths they normally wouldn't divulge. You can only get out after saying one of these truths aloud for someone else to hear. The effects could last for as long or as short a time as you wish. Feel free to either bother Hal or just wander in alone or wotever.))
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[He forces his hands over his mouth to muffle his words, eyes widening in horror.]
-ub.
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Alek...what the fuck is wrong with you?!
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[Great, now he's done it. Whatever he'd eaten or done that's making him tell the truth is going to ruin his friendship with Natalia forever.]
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The same man who killed me on the first day he was here...the same man who has been making my life a living hell...and you were about to screw him?!
[Natalia laughed bitterly.] I guess I shouldn't be so surprised, huh? Everything that can go wrong with me in this place seems to always go wrong. It's just icing on the cake that who I thought was my best friend here has feelings for the worst piece of shit this nexus has ever produced.
[She shook her head.] Shows how well I pick my friends, doesn't it.
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I did not want any of this effecting you. I did not want make troubles. I just am not smartest person in world.
[And at the moment, he doesn't mind that this place is making him insult himself.]
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[Oh boy, here comes a rant, and Natalia's powerless to stop it.] Have you forgotten that he's in a group of people that tried to burn the fucking nexus down?! Sunny, your daughter, would have died if I didn't come in when I did! Maybe he wasn't directly involved in it, but just the fact that he's able to condone actions like this...does it not even matter to you one goddamned bit?!
[She scowled in disgust.] Or does your daughter not even matter to you anymore?!
[No, Natalia wasn't good with children, but due to her own strong connection she had with her father, you better believe this was an issue she was sensitive about.]
Maybe he hasn't killed in a while, but that doesn't discount the fact that he likes killing people. What're you going to do the next time he mindlessly kills someone? Or don't you give a fuck about that anymore either?!
[She then holds her hand up to her head again, feeling a headache coming on.] Why do you even bother having a patrol anymore if you just sleep with all the goddamned enemies?!
[A sigh.] Why do I even bother with it anymore?
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Of... of course I care about Sunny! I would kill anybody who hurt her! And I would not sleep with all enemies, it is only him! And if you do not remember, I kill him myself before!
[He's only bothering to say these things since Natalia will have to accept them as true. Otherwise he'd probably consider it useless.]
You are very dear to me, but I cannot help this! I wish I can do everything for make you happy, but I cannot!
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[She then gave Alek a hard glare.] What was the true story behind that anyways? Even if you are my friend, I refuse to believe that you could kill someone like that on your own.
[Normally even she wouldn't be that cold to someone she thought she was close to, but this room made her even more outspoken than before.]
You don't care about making anyone else happy. Even if I've done things to you that were less than friendly, I did them because I thought it was for your own good.
And I'm not the only one that's effected by this. What about Pain? I say him a week or two ago, and I knew something weird was going on with you, but even when I pressed him for information, he didn't tell me a damned thing. Even if I still don't fully trust him, even I can recognize that he cares about you. But you don't care! You just keep sleeping with someone that not only killed me, but killed him as well! Does it get you off sleeping with someone that kills people who care about you?!
[She then sighed, feeling a little bad for blurting all of this out. But at the same time, it felt a little good getting all of this out. However, in either case, she was still feeling pretty dejected over all of this. Her father and brother died, her mother disowned her, all of the friends she made in her early years of her military career had died, most of her friends in the nexus had disappeared, and now the person she thought was her best friend apparently enjoyed fucking the one person she hated most (in perhaps her entire life) over maintaining a friendship with her. Really, everyone abandoned her eventually. It shouldn't hurt this much.]
I'm done with this.
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No... you are right. I did not kill him on my own, he let me. He let me because of talk I have with you after I tell him I must kill him or never we can talk again. He prefer let me kill him than that.
[He frowns deeply over the rest of what she says, the words bringing up memories he prefers not to think about. But once again she's right... it was his selfishness that cause his family's death. He can't help but wonder if it's going to now destroy his life here. Maybe people don't change.]
I do not want you go, Natalia. But you are right, I am selfish. I... I need think about everything you say.
[He rubs at his eyes with the heels of his hands, trying not to let his physical emotions tell the truth like his words are.]
Thank you.
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It doesn't matter how many times he dies here...he's always going to come back. Nevertheless, I can never forgive him not only what he did to me, but to others as well. He killed another woman for no reason. Then he kills the person I love [Natalia winced, glad he wasn't in the room to hear this.] for kissing another woman on the cheek!
As long as we're both in the nexus, I'm always going to want to hunt him, as well as his unit, down. Even if I do manage to kill him someday, which I probably won't, because I keep getting killed whenever I plot against him [Dammit], my joy will be short-lived, because he'll just come back to life again! It'll be a never-ending cycle.
It's not just him either. It's his entire unit. Did you forget about the misery this nexus went through when his unit took over?! If they do it again, will you support them?!
[Natalia then frowns, pausing before she continued.] I tried staying in your Hall Patrol for this long, because you were the first person that was kind to me here. But more and more...it's becoming apparent that we can't see eye to eye on our goals. I've tried and tried to make you see that these black suited Cobras are not suitable people to align yourself with...but it's obvious that my attempts are falling on deaf ears. So...I think it's time that I leave...for good. Either you'll find out on your own that they're not good for you...or you'll become just as bad as they are.
Either way...it's obvious that I'm not needed. I never had a purpose to fight for, before coming to this nexus, other than creating a name for myself. And now, that I have a reason to fight...I can't stay with a group that goes against what I believe in.
[She sighs again.] Fear is right...the one that doesn't kill people...I need to quit following orders and make my own. So that's what I'm going to do...make my own group.
[She didn't know why she was saying all of this aloud, but again, she was powerless to stop her own babbling.]
I really hope that you see that you're making the wrong choices someday...but until then...don't try to talk to me.
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[But... he doesn't think she's going to listen to him whatever he says now. Looking down, he shakes his head slowly.]
I probably will try still. I do not want lose you.
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[What a sad day it was indeed when a renowned killer was found as a better friend than she was.]
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This was not choice between anyone until you make it that way, you know! This is not me chose him over you, but you are one make me chose! He never say I need chose him or you even though he hate you!
[He knows the argument was petering out, but... he doesn't want her to think that way!]
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The worst I've done to him was try to make his now ex-wife turn on him! And after what he did to the person I care about, can you blame me?! As it is, I got killed again for that anyways!
So of course he wouldn't mind if you were friends with me...he can just kill me again if I get in the way!
[Desperate for him to see her point of view, she thought about it, before giving a groan.] I know how terrified you are of that Fury in their unit and that Pain too, but the last I heard you were comparing him to a baby...how would it make you feel if I suddenly decided I wanted to sleep with him in spite of the fact that he tortured you before?!
I wouldn't do that, because in spite of what everyone else thinks, I actually do have morals. [And this is normally where she would stop, not liking to dig into her vulnerabilities. But this damned room wouldn't let her stop.] I actually care about what my friends think...at least until they inevitably leave me.