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[There's a young Snake roaming around, seemingly looking for someone. He has a concerned, fleeting look on his face. Despite his training to mask his emotions, he can't help the frown currently furrowing his brows.]

[He's lost someone important. He can't find her anywhere. No matter where he searched, Dr. Clark was no where to be seen.]

[He picked up his pace, moving from a stride, to a jog, to a sprint. His bandanna zipped about behind him, flying around his head. He panted, trying so desperately to find his carer, but when he eventually reached the lobby from searching the hallways of the entire building, he collapsed on a bench in exhaustion, panting hard.]

[Sweat dripped down David's face as he hunched over, trying his best to prevent his frustration from surfacing, but the obvious grimace on his face remained permenantly fixed.]

_Damnit...

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[Although he is without a care-giver, there is one thing David should learn to get used to having -- a shadow. A shadow that slips in behind him, moving every which way he does; following him through the halls, lingering against the walls, going largely unseen by the boy and passersby.]

[A shadow named Frank Jaeger.]

[How long this shadow has been following him on his hunt for Doctor Clark is unknown; maybe he'd caught up with him a few halls back, perhaps in the last infirmary he'd checked. It could even be only now that the boy has caught up with the other young soldier -- he won't say. He'll simply linger nearby, allowing his boots to click against the floor as he approaches David from behind.]

...You're tired.

[Whether or not it was something they had agreed to mutually, the relationship that David and Frank had went deeper than the two of them could have imagined. It would only come to realization when they were mature.]

[David can hear the echoing sound bounding off the walls. He doesn't immediately raise his head. Only when he hears the familiar voice does his chin turn, wearily gazing at Frank.]

Yeah? What of it?

If you are fatigued, you are not training hard enough.

Why?

[All Null recognizes is that David was running, possibly with the intent of looking for something. He doesn't grasp the idea of an emotional component behind the act -- something mentally exhausting in addition to the way he exerted himself to examine every visible hallway of the Nexus.]

I am training hard enough. Training is the consistancy of my life. I wake early and train for all hours, sleep late.

Not that it's any business of yours.

[He grunts, averting Frank's gaze. His chest ached, similarly to when he had met Big Boss, when he had been informed of his family. A father. A brother.]

[He hunched over on the bench, sweating profously. It seemed as though he was in physical pain, but it was a strange unnerving feeling in his heart and stomach that beckoned him into a nervous state. He was alone.]

[He steps closer to David, sharp eyes focused on him. There's something deeper than the physical exhaustion visible on the other soldier's exterior. It's difficult to comprehend precisely but he feels he compelled to understand why. How can someone appear so ragged? As if every part of them is drained of energy?]

...What were you looking for?

[It hasn't helped circumstances that, ever since he woke up to look for Miss Clark that day she had disappeared, he had checked the building in a constant hope that she would appear once more.]

[But to no avail, he was alone. She had not returned, and another promise had been broken.]

Someone.

[That answer does not suffice. He needs to know more. Why? He doesn't precisely understand that part, he just feels he wants to know. He wants to... Help.]

Tell me then. Who?

Doctor Clark.

[His voice was quiet, subdued, as though he didn't want to reveal too much. Like how he had come to view the woman as a mother figure, or that she was the only one who didn't seem to lie to him, or make him feel uncomfortable, unlike how Big Boss and Hal did.]

She has been missing for some time.

[He nods slowly, beginning to find some semblance of understanding. Although he'd only been in Doctor Clark's care for a handful of months prior to his arrival in the Nexus, if Elisa were to disappear for a length of time... He too would hunt the Nexus for her, until his feet were soaked in blood.]

[David has lost his doctor. He understands.]

I was temporarily under her care. She was my doctor prior to my arrival here.

She's the only thing that made sense in this place, and now...

She's left me. Just like my father did. They don't want me anymore.

[He clenched his fists tighter, trembling to his feet. He tore off down the hallway in his childish fit of rage and confusion, attempting to come to terms with things. While he had been in this building for a while, he still found even the simplest of situations questionably difficult. That meant coming to terms with the fact he wasn't in his safe environment of 'home'.]

[What scared him the most was that, he could not return there. He couldn't escape.]

[Silent and calm, David's new shadow follows after him. Although his outburst was a bit sudden, his words were what stuck with Null most. They don't want me anymore.]

[He understands that feeling more than he lets on.]

David. Wait.

[David is well aware that Null is following him. He holds back from indicating that he is aware of the other boy. Instead, he festered in his own mind, thinking about the pain it brought to know there was no one there for him. No one that was honest, anyway. No one that he could trust.]

[He slowed down after a moment, clutching hold of the nearest wall. He pressed his face against said wall.]

[He comes to a stop, standing a short distance away as David presses himself against the wall. Despite his own frustrated tantrums, seeing someone else in such an emotional state is almost an entirely new experience for him. Seeing Elisa cry was one thing, it indicated what emotion she was expressing... Most of the time. Seeing David trying to keep a stoic façade, trying to ignore what he didn't know how to express...]

...I know what it means to be alone.

[It was from the months of frustration built up. Not only that, but the neverending development of puberty had hit him directly. It was hard coping with being a soldier, and learning to become a young man. He could only take so much before he occassionally lost himself.]

[He turned his head slowly, gazing at Frank. His eyes were stining, but he refrained from letting tears roll out.]

You do?

[He nods. He's grown to accept the idea that his Big Boss may never arrive -- and he's realized that any day now, Elisa too could vanish permanently. Loneliness and the idea of abandonment stings... But all one can do is move on.]

I've been alone my entire life... When you seek answers and the only response is silence... It is up to you to interpret what that silence means.

[In comparison to how Null had lived his life, David had always been surrounded by people. Whether or not they actually cared about him as not the issue. It was the fact he was so very used to having company. Company of individuals. People to teach him and aid him... guide him.]

Silence.

I am not used to silence. [Perhaps that was what had driven him to a near insanity. That, mixed with his emotions and abandonment issues were not a fantastic mix.]

[He squints his eyes, rubbing them firmly.] _{No wonder you tried to kill me when we first met.}

[Null remains silent a moment. He's used to the sound of silence; so often, that was all he would hear. With few memories of his past, he had no choice but to accept that what lay in the depths of his mind would forever be shrouded in a blanket of darkness, under cover of silence. It was something he assumed all soldiers were meant to grow accustomed to, why Elisa would leave him alone for extended periods of time -- why Big Boss could not care for him.]

[He finally speaks, the corners of his mouth turning up ever-so slightly into a faint smile.]

If I'd wanted you dead, I would have killed you then. No questions.

[Due to the mask covering Null's face, David was left with the stoic voice of his 'shadow', leading him to believe he was deadly serious about what he had suggested.]

I am aware of that. [He spoke in a quiet mumble. He had indeed been intimidated by Frank. He still was.]

[Reaching up, Null takes hold of his mask and pulls it down, letting the other boy see that faint smile.]

You are not my enemy.

I don't want to be your enemy.

[It was still rather obvious that David had not encountered other children outside of Frank before. The concept of having an aquaintence of his own age, let alone his first friend... It was unfathomable.]

[The smile puts him at east, but he knows not to assume that everything is okay between them, that Frank won't try to kill him again.]

[Acquaintances his own age are few and far between -- the closest one being Elisa at this time. He does recognize that Elisa wanted him to get along with people, find "friends" as she'd called them. Whether it's Nexus magic at work or something else, Null finds himself dawn to David. Unaware of what his future relationship with the other soldier is, it's a strange and almost... Pleasant feeling. To discover a potential comrade, another child soldier -- someone his own age.]

...A young girl, Sunny. She informed me of this event known as "Halloween". I am not entirely certain regarding protocol for the event... But I would like for you to accompany us.

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[The difference of the situation, and yet the familiarity of being close to another child was both exhilarating and frightening at the same time for David. He had only read in books how people befriended others. He had not yet come to terms with the notion of 'friendship'. Yet he knew that, despite his life being threatened by Null, he had similarly been drawn to him in turn, as though he had seen his face somewhere before.]

Halloween...

[He pondered over the thought.] It's a common tradition. Not celebrated as widely as Christmas, but an occassion known world wide.

I have never celebrated it.

I had not even heard of such a thing prior to my arrival here... Perhaps this could be our first Halloween then.

[Quite possibly for the first time since he arrived in this Nexus, a smile grew on David's face. Something finally clicked with him deep inside, something that made his chest feel warm and tight.]

I can tell you everything I know.

I would like that.