fissionmailed | A bit Belated

[Believe it or not, Wolf is actually in his room. Hearing the knocking on the door, he stands up from his tedious task of arranging the rifle ammunition he snatched from an armory, and approached his door. Even if he had only told two people where his room was now, he still looked through the peephole in his door, to make sure one of his enemies hadn't figured out where he lived. But upon seeing Fortune, he unlocked the door and peered outside.]

Helena, what brings you here?

[Then Wolf looks down and sees the birthday cake. He laughs a bit before looking back up to her.]

Little Esme must have told you, yes? I should have known that a younger version of me would be so perceptive...

Come on inside.

[Nods] Mm-hm. [A slight smile] I can tell that you must have been a very interesting child.

[Fortune quirks a brow behind her large sunglasses, looking past Wolf to his door] ...I'm not going to see a throng of naked woman in a cage or something, am I?

[Said jokingly, though she wouldn't be surprised at all if it were true.]

I guess you could say that.

[Child soldiers tended to be pretty interesting, after all.]

Afraid not. [Exaggerated shrug] I cannot seem to find anyone to go along with it.

[He smirked, going along with the joke. ~~Besides, he had tried the whole cage thing once. He didn't like it very much.~~]

Actually, my room is not anything special. I never know when I might have to relocate, after all.

[He opened his door wider, and gestured for her to come in.]

Please excuse the mess. I am trying to organize my ammunition.

[She chuckles lightly] Alright, smart-guy. I should set this down quickly so that you can blow out the candle. Wouldn't want candle wax to ruin the lettering that I worked so hard on, would you? [Helena tosses him a smirk and steps inside, waving off his comment about the mess.]

Of course not.

[Wolf shuts the door after she steps inside. He then moves a few boxes of tranquilizer rounds off of his simple table, placing them under it instead, to make room for the cake.]

You know, you didn't have to go through all this trouble. Even if I do appreciate it...

[She sets the cake down, then straightens and yawns briefly while covering her mouth] ...I know that.

[Turning to Wolf, Fortune gives him a serious look] ...But you deserve to be reminded that there are people here who give a crap about you. I know that you have the whole "lone wolf" thing going on, but it wouldn't hurt to spend times like this with those peole, would it?

[Smiles] Now make a wish.

....

I'm not singing.

[Wolf looks down, feeling a bit guilty.] I suppose not.

[But he looks back up, giving a faint smile.] Alright.

[He looks at the cake strangely, not used to actually celebrating his birthday. He then gave Fortune a grin.]

Why not? I am sure your voice is fine.

[However, he wasn't going to force her to sing. So after a few moments, he finally blew it out. Even if he didn't have a wish.]

[She smiles after he blows out the candles]

Honestly? I don't think my singing voice is too bad. ~~My voice actress was a singer/MC, after all!~~ ..But the last time I sang for anyone but myself was during the 5th grade. Nowadays, I just let my sax do all of the-

-Oh! [Fortune lifts the strap holding her saxophone in it's case above her head, placing it on the ground] How about that?

[Snapping it open and removing her precious sax, Fortune takes a seat while taking a moment to wipe off the mouth-piece] ...I'll play for you.

[She lifts the instrument to her lips, and removes her sunglasses, giving wolf a playful eyebrow-waggle] I'll just start serenading you, then.

[Fortune begins playing (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAJxdcXI1bw)]

You know, I was just kidding about singing...

[Wolf rubbed the back of his head, he didn't want her to go through the trouble of trying to please him, but...he did like hearing her play.]

Heh. Alright then.

[He then sat back on his chair, listening to Fortune's song, until she finished.]

Thanks...

[Fortune places her saxophone in her lap upon finishing. Playing her sax always comforts her, so it wasn't really a big deal to Helena]

It's no problem.

[She sighs] Sorry I didn't get you an actual gift... [Helena stands and begins putting her sax away] I honestly had no idea what you would want.

...But... is there anything I can do for you?

There really is not anything I want. So, it is fine.

[He quirked a brow at his question. That...could be taken in a perverted way, but Wolf quickly pushed the thought from his head. He was being good now, he shouldn't be thinking things like that!]

No. [shakes head] You have done a lot for me already. I am glad simply to see you here, really.

[She smiles] Alright.

...So- [Fortune stands, walking over to where Wolf sat on the couch and looks down at him warmly]

A few more years and you'll be as old as this hag. [Said in a playful way]

[Much like she usually does for little Adrian, Helena reaches over to brush Wolfs bang aside, tucking a few strands of hair behind his ear and away from his face.] Happy birthday, Daran.

[And, also much like she does for little Adrian, Helena tilts his head with that hand and bends down slightly, following the little gesture up with a light kiss pressed tentatively to Wolfs forehead. It's not anything she thought very much about, really]

[Even if it was a joke, Wolf still frowned.] You are no hag, Helena.

[He then watched her as she brushed aside his bang, to kiss his forehead. It was obvious, even to Wolf...he liked Helena on a far deeper level than he liked most women. In this situation, he would normally pull her into a kiss...but things between them always got complicated when he pushed too far.]

Thank you...

[He glanced down at the ground. Their friendship was in a good spot right now...Wolf didn't want to mess that up.]

[There's the slightest bit of a pause as her hand lingers on the side of Wolf's face. Her own expression darkens slightly as a thought occurs to her... Something she hadn't realized until just now, being so close to him at the moment.]

[...They never had an un-provoked kiss, did they? There was always a room, or some kind of event that pushed them together. Even the kiss they shared on the roof that they both lamely decided to blame on their emotional week. ...Helena was crying. And Wolf, lacking both friends and people-skills, went in for the kiss because that was all he knew to do. He wanted to comfort her, and that was the only way he knew how. That's the way he dealt with most women, after all.]

[It's almost sad.]

[But then Helena turns away quickly, pushing the small thought away. None of that matters anymore. --Yes, there is... an attraction. But the two of them are just friends.]

*Clears her throat* ...Do you have a knife for the cake?

[Wolf feels the slightest tinge of disappointment when she turns away. But it was better this way.]

I believe so, just a moment.

[Wolf stood up and walked to a drawer, where he kept random items. He did not have a kitchen in his room, but he still had a rather sharp knife, because he never knew when he might need it.]

Here you are.

[She takes the knife with a nod, realizing now that he lacks a kitchen, and thus is probably lacking any real dishes or plates.]

...Hm. [Shrugs] Well, it's only a small cake. 'You have anything against eating with your hands?

[Helena gives a light smile and cuts out a small piece, lifting it to her mouth to demonstrate. She doesn't eat it yet, since it's tradition that the birthday-boy or girl gets the first bite.] ...Unless you're one of those people that doesn't enjoy getting their hands dirty. Then I could just go get you a plate.

[Wolf shakes his head.]

No, it's alright.

[He wasn't a fan of sweets at all...but he could choke down a piece, since she went through the effort. Wolf cut himself a piece and took a bite out of it.]

[She waits until he takes a bite of the cake to eat her own piece. Helena places the edge of a finger in her mouth, getting the last of it off of her hands. Hey, it's not too bad! Then again, she has always loved sweets. Fortune gives herself a mental pat on the back.]

...Is it alright?

Of course, it is good.

[Or it was about as good as Wolf imagined it would be, if he were into sweets. He gave a slight smile as he took another bite. However, he gets a little bit of the frosting on his hands. Well...he wasn't going to just sit there with frosting on himself, so naturally, he licked it off ~~in a totally non-suggestive way, I swear~~.]

A bit messy though.

[She shrugs] I like getting dirty sometimes.

[....Wait, that didn't come out right-]

--I mean, I don't mind when my hands get sticky. ...With food.

[Shit.]

[The gesture may not have been intended to be suggestive, but it did manage to subconciously trigger a few... thoughts. Maybe it would be best if she just leaves before things get too awkward.]

...

I've gotta go.

[It was a good thing that he wasn't eating cake at that moment, or Wolf probably would have choked on it, hearing her first statement. Instead, he laughed a bit.] I see.

[He raised a brow as she suddenly stood up. He wasn't going to stop her, if she had to leave.]

I understand.

[He stood up as well.]

Thanks for coming by.

[Normally, Fortune might have frowned or pouted at Wolf. But even she had to laugh a bit at herself in this situation.] Alright, alright... you know what I meant.

[She walks over to him] Make sure you enjoy the rest of your day, okay? And by 'enjoy' I mean actually doing something fun. [Gestures to the table] Not just organizing your ammo. You know, live a little. There are plenty of things for you... to....

um- [Snerk] -You've got a little...

[Helena smiles, bringing a hand up to Wolf's face once more. Her thumb lightly brushes the edge of his mouth-] ...frosting. [She trails her hand down, a bit more transfixed on the light smudge than she should be.]

[Wolf sort of waved her off as she told him to do something fun. Honestly, he had no intention of stepping outside of his room too much, this particular day.]

Is that right? I guess I...

[He watched her as she brought her hand to his face. He had managed to avoid making any moves on her once already, and his resolve was starting to break. Even if he tried to tell himself that he didn't like Helena like that, subconciously, his lips parted a bit, as his head inched a little closer to hers. Because maybe if she instigated it, it wouldn't be as awkward for him, if problems rose from this...]

[...She really should have just left.]

[Helena tilts her head upwards slightly. They're practically sharing the same breath now... So she might as well just do it, right? She obviously wants to. What's the worst that can happen?]

*...I can make him feel awkward again, that's what. Just like the time I practically- no- literally pinned him to a wall on the day that virus broke out, and he couldn't even look at me for weeks afterward. That's the worst that can happen.*

[But Wolf looks like he wants to...]

*-Of course he does. Right now, anyway. That's just the way he is. Wolf even said it himself; He has a weakness for women. That doesn't mean he wont regret this later.*

[But they were able to repair their friendship before...]

*-I can't take that risk again. And this... this is different. If I kiss him now, there will be nothing to blame it on. It will be me kissing Wolf simply because I want to, and not because of a room or virus or emotional state. And then what?*

[...And then it would be like admitting what she hasn't been able to, nor wanted to, tell him out loud. That she actually has feelings for...]

*--Nononono. There will be none of that. He'd probably feel so awkward that I'd never hear from him again. Wolf just... doesn't think like that. How many women has he been with by now? It wouldn't be surprising if he went through half of the damn nexus already. The moment I start thinking that he sees me differently from the rest of them is the moment everything goes horribly wrong.*

[Helena's lip unintentionally grazes his in the midst of this internal conflict. She almost loses all willpower at that moment, but Fortune quickly jerks herself out of the little trance and steps back from Wolf. She looks away from him, and can practically hear her own heartbeat as she takes a breath. She wasn't even aware that she was holding her breath a bit.]

....I'm sorry.

[That was dangerous. It wasn't like the day of the virus, where her body ached for him. It felt... more than physical. Way more.]

[She HAD to step back, if she didn't want to do something stupid. Helena chose not to kiss him, because their platonic relationship was just about the only thing separating her from being just another 'friend with benefits'. And because she is one of the only real friends he has. And because...
...she's a coward.]

I um... [Removes her hand from his face] ...got it.

[She clears her throat and turns to walk away, AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE, from Wolfs room.]

[Feeling her lips graze across his, he feel into a half-lidded expression as he put a hand on her arm. But before anything could really happen, she turned away. Letting his hand fell down, he frowned.]

You shouldn't be...

[He sighed as she opened his door to leave.]

Thanks...

[Two voices rang in his head as he watched her leave. One wanted him to just leave her. Just let her walk away, it was the sensible thing to do. The other, however, wanted him to go run after her. To go chase her. Because all either one of them seemed to do was run away.]

[However, when it came down to it...Wolf was always going to pick the decision in his head that made more sense. The one that would least likely mess things up more than they already were. So with a sigh, he shut the door when she was out of the area.]

[It was...better to let things go like this, wasn't it? He had resolved to quit being the cause of sorrow for women, and Helena was certainly no different. Sure, she was strong, composed, and used to dealing with issues, but Wolf couldn't risk bringing her more sadness to her life. With her father in the nexus, she was finally starting to look happy...and Wolf didn't want to ruin that.]

[It was true. Wolf liked Helena on a far deeper level than any of the nameless women he slept with before. He wanted to believe that everything he felt for her was platonic, but Wolf knew that wasn't true. He had the EVAs here in this nexus. And he knew that he loved them, especially the female one that was closest to his age. However, his love for them was not of a romantic kind. Surely, he would die for any one of them, but his feelings were platonic.]

[But Helena was different. Yes, she was a friend, but at the same time, he still desired her. Which was odd, because usually Wolf was done with a woman after sleeping with them once. Even if having a guilty conscious for seeing the women around after having sex with them took a serious toll on Wolf's lifestyle, it probably wasn't the only reason that he was giving a genuine attempt to well...not make himself look like a womanizer.]

[Although he had been the most celibate in his life, since parting from his version of Big Boss, he knew that he didn't deserve Helena. He couldn't make her happy like her departed husband did. Wolf was just a womanizing killer-for-hire. And even if his life had made serious changes, since arriving at the nexus, he still deserved nothing for everything that he did in the past.]

[Taking a seat in the simple, metal chair in his room, he smiled in spite of his angst. Yes...things were definitely better this way.]

[Although there was no way in hell that he was going to leave his room today.]

A bit Belated

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EVEN ON HIS BIRTHDAY, HE EMOES. D;

But of course!

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It's all good. I'm just being slow, in general. >.>

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A bit Belated

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EVEN ON HIS BIRTHDAY, HE EMOES. D;

But of course!

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((*Is having connection problems* Sorry my tags are slow DX))

It's all good. I'm just being slow, in general. >.>

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LONG TAG OF DOOM

Okay, I might not be able to match the epicness of that post, but have a three-parter post~

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((Is having connection problems Sorry my tags are slow DX))